lol... hi?

it hasn't only been..forever.
hi. xD
so uhh... I guess not much has happened? still dating ben <3, um...yeah. going to BCC for college cause I don't know what I want to do with myself :l oh well. still don't have a job -.- sigh. think I'm getting a new comp for christmas :D yay! finally *w* mine is like, 6-7 years old >.>

meh I don't feel wonderful, but what can ya do. oh well.

HAI GUISE

oh my fucking god im having like a fucking breakdown
oh my god
im so scared right now

fuck
a couple days ago ben had an asthma attack in a restaurant... his parents picked him up from princeton... he went to the doctor's the next day but they didn't see anything wrong... said it was just stress related... his lungs were still killing him...

and now... today he's been out all day at some fucking rehearsal thing... I text him and ask him if he's coming home soon...

"probably not... in a bit of an emergency... cant talk... call you in a bit..."

FUCK.

okay so awesome news: I'm freaking the fuck out! I'm scared out of my mind right now! I knew he shouldn't have gone to that rehearsal! I knew it wasn't good for him! Fucking hell.... fuck, just fuck. I've never had to deal with something like this before. fuck. fucking fuck.

DSFKSDFJSDFSSD GUYS

IS MAI BURRDEI


WOOOOOOOOOOOP



PAAAARTAAAAAAAYYYYY!!!!!!

well... got in a fight with ryan today. -sigh- and a fight with kelly XD oy. people.


anyway... other than that.. life with ben's good. <3 mom is kinda a bitch tho, she won't let us sleep in the same freaking house  e__e I have to go to nonna's friday night. it's such a pain in the fucking ass. oh well. don't feel like writing much hjgfklg

ksdfjsd okay
so
I got back together with Ben. <3 Yay. I do miss Ryan though... but oh well. -shrugs- It's rly cold omg. I'm kinda worried about that virus that's supposed to attack tomorrow... I dunno, maybe I shouldn't be. We'll see. .3.

.... wow okay.
so like
lol wat
ryan cheated on me... then dumped me.
klfsj
okay.
sigh.
life, man. life. and ben wants me back. I dunno... maybe? we'll see...

ffffffffffffff
bored
cold
tired.
btw ben dumped me lol. douche. :B so I'm going out with Ryan now. <3 ilhim. he's really great.... I just wish I could see him u_u

urf I'm trying to help my friend who's getting her dA accounts hacked ): it's so nerve-wracking. sighhhhhh.
borrrrrredddd

ughhhhhhfffffff I KEEP GETTING D/CD FROM WOW omfgdskfjs it's so annoyinggggggg kill meeee

and lol wtf @ the SMT mmo. wut? I tried it... it wasn't that good at all. not MMO quality. regular game quality, but definitely not MMO quality... atlus, stick to making P5 plz.

ben's sick... x.x I feel so bad... I wanna take care of him, but I can't exactly be there right now... -sigh- waugh. stressful plz.


BUT
TIM GOT ME A SHIRT THAT SAYS [Epic Mount]. OMFGFJKLsjfsdlkfjaflksajfsld I LOVE IT SO MUCHHHHHHHHH I'm wearing it right now cB best shirt EVAR
so yeah random rant akjfsd

HAPPY 2009 BITCHES~! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! <3333333

mmmmeh. random post is random. I miss Ben. I'm like a broken record rofl. the same thing over and over. oh well. you'll have to deal. I'm lonely and... bored. and miss him. =3= I really hope I see him again soon....

guess I ain't a big girl. got my period, a cold, and a couple lectures today. not to mention I'm lonely as hell. I miss my Ben.

oh and I'm stuck in P4. blah. damn you, shadow kanji and your faggotry.
fuck, school tomorrow.
my eyes hurt.

SO GRAB SOMETHING SHARP
FIND SOME COVER
KILL THE LIGHTS AND NAIL THE BACKDOOR SHUT
THIS ISNT FUNNY ANYMORE
OH NO THIS MEANS WAAAAAAAARRRR
AND SOMETHING TELLS MEEEEE ITS GONNA BE A LONG NIGHT

oh god GUYS HI
HI GUYS
HEY
SUP
WAZZUP WHOA
LOL WOTLK IN TOMORROW.... ON TOMORROW

... SOMETHING

so like omgomgomgomg wow is down which makes me mad. but. graaah. I loves my Bennnnn. He makes me so happy. the cool breeze blowing through my hair in his sexy automobile.
skldsfsjfhsa
btw Ben is my boyfriend. XD yeah, I guess I'm bi now. =o who'd'a thought? srsly, nick the lesbian... bi. o_o wtf
oh well
I don't mind c: in fact I am happy
because my ben is lovely and cute and aaaahhhhhsdjfds <3
AND
WRATH OF THE LICH KING TOMORROW even though I'm broke lol
I want a death knight. mmmm sexy. oh shit wait shiro's not at 55 yet. xD I.. forgot.

OH YEAH
to those who play wow:
Server: Bloodhoof
Side: Horde
Character: Shirohibiki, lvl 52 Bloodelf Hunter
Guild: Loyal Destruction

whisper meeeeeh C:

well that's about all. I'm hyper and just felt like updating lols. SEE YA LATER GUYSES <333333

OH MY FUCKING GOD GUYS

I FUCKING SAW TROPIC THUNDER

HOLY SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

BEST FUCKING MOVIE EVER HOLY FUCK

GO FUCKING SEE IT I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING YOU GUYS OMFG
JACK BLACK
JACK BLACK
JACK BLACK
JACK BLACK
JACK BLACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMFG JACK BLACK I ADORE YOU OH MY FUCKING GOD

YOU'RE SO SEXY!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Okay so some parts WERE a little gross... and icky... But for the most part I could handle it. It all just..... came together with this:

JACK BLACK (Jeff Portnoy): Alpa If you untie me, I will literally suck your dick right now.
BRANDON T. JACKSON (Alpa Chino): I told you for the last time… I LOVE THE PUSSY!
JACK BLACK (Jeff Portnoy): I’ll cradle the balls… stroke the shaft… work the pipe… and swallow the gravy… Get it over here buddy, let’s do this.

OH MY FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODD!!!!!!!! I screamed "OOOOOOOOOH YEEEEEEEEAAAAAAHHHHH" RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE THEATRE

and everyone looked at me. I think we were the loudest people fucking there. That movie was AMAZING.

LOL WTF, TOM CRUISE
WTF
W
T
F

Seriously if you don't go fucking see it RIGHT THE FUCK NOW, you WILL die.

I can't even fucking play WoW right now, I'm so fucking hyped up. And high on Tropic Thunder. Oh my fucking god. Oh fuck yes. Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssssss.
AND FUCKING TOBEY OMFG AH
AH
TOBEY
TOOOOOOOBEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY SOOOOOOOOO SEEEEEEEEEXYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! 
SATAN'S ALLEY IS A FUCKING MUST-SEE
too bad it's not real.... IT SHOULD FUCKING BE THOUGH OH MY GAWD, GAY TOBEY MCGUIRE. NO FUCKING WAY, I AM COMPLETELY ORGASMING OVER LIFE HERE. SERIOUSLY. GAY TOBEY AND GAY JACK BLACK MAKE MY LIFE SO, SO FUCKING WONDERFUL. I'm not even fucking with you.


Bottom line:

Go. Fucking. See it.

lol hi guise.
long time no see? xD

um... I'm going out with hoshiko2. <33333 I love her so damn muuuuuuuchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.sdkfjsdslfjsl

BABY, I LOVE YOU!!!!!! SO MUCHHHHHHHSFKLJS um yeah... I dunno... I'm sad Flyff is down. ): vry sad. u_u I SAW HORTON HEARS A WHO OMFG <33333333 BEST MOVIE EVARRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEE. and uh.... um..... I'm a lazy ass. xD; nothing new. okay I have nothing else to say oo; AU REVOIR! X3 <333333


love you my darling little Hoshiko~

............. ugh.

well guys, I finished Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney Trials and Tribulations. Greatest game ever plz. AND, I got a new moodtheme. Can you guess? Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney and Justice For All.

I tried uploading it about six times.

I'm not uploading another moodtheme for a long, long time. -arm falls off-

Yeah... I'm sick, yaaay. cold. slkfsd. x3x and I have hw to do... bleh I'm lazy. I'm sad PW:AATAT is over. D: ... I need the other 3 games now rofl.

holy shit, Godot is like..... oh my god sexy. I want to rape him. ... Along with just about every other character in that game, lol. ... 'cept for Victor Kudo. He's old. 69, in fact. ): And Sister Bikini, and Dahlia Hawthorne. And Pearls, but only cause she's like.... 10. Oops, am I spoiling stuff for you guys? xD Sorry. But yeah, everyone else.... watch out >)
Maya is SO cute ;w; omfg. PHOENIX WRIGHTxMILES EDGEWORTH FTWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. CB

Okay I'll stop ranting now. D: -skitters off-

Grah.

Hi guys. Um.... yeah I dunno.

Hey, Hosh.
Just to let you know.

I do care.
Okay?
Okay. Maybe I've been cold, I don't know. I'm sorry if I have. Y'know... Even if I wasn't going to Yora's, I really doubt it would've happened anyway. It's just the fact that you're 19 and live in Cali. That'd really throw my rents off.

Really. They're especially on guard because of Sora-chan. If you're in my neighborhood, that's fine; but Cali... even upper-jersey isn't good. That's where she lived. I really am really sorry. I wish I could do something, but I really can't. It'd never fly with them. So... whether you believe me or not, I'm sorry.

Sorry if this pisses you off, which it prolly will. ._.

AKDSAFLSDKF:SLDFKAL<DALFDSKFL:SJGKMAOIFEIJREGSDF:Alfd


GUYS.

GUYS.
GUYS SERIOUSLY.
LMFAO.

I JUST CAME BACK FROM THE MOST AMAZING PARTY THAT EVER EXISTED HOLY SHIT GUYS

LOLWUT
DUDENICE.

LMFAO.


PORTAL, HALF-LIFE 2, TEAM FORTRESS 2, CAKE = AMAZING

sdfl;ks CAKE GUYS.

CAKE.
alksdklf
THAT WAS A JOKE. HAHA. FAT CHANCE.

So I'm GLaD. I got burned.

lolwut dudeno okay.

okay.
so. Anand's bday party. ROCKED. Duuuuude. We played Portal, PORTAL, POOOORTALLLLLLL, Team Fortress 2 [briefly], Halo 3, PORTAL, Half-Life 2, ZACK BEAT HALF-LIFE 2 EPISODE 2. OMFG

it was so sad ):

SPOILERZZZZZZZ@!!!!S?s.fsd CAKE

dudeno.
the guy.

the guy with the crowbarleg. ):

DIED.
The penis-tongue thing like stuck its dick in his head.
and sucked his brain out. with its penis.
and the chick alex was like "NO DAD NO SDFKJSDLFKJSD -SOB-" and it......... was... really sad. ): alex almost got pwned too but dog came and like pwned the shit out of the penis guy.

END OF SPOILERZfdsl;k CAKE


no no okay.

ANAND YOUR COMPUTER SUCKS HAHA.

:D

Zack's computer is AMAZING to play Half-Life 2 on. SRSLY. Holy shit the graphics are just.


WHOA.

lieksrsly.

solike

we looked at a lot of porn too. (: IT WAS AWESOME:?L2;li4038

IT IS NOT A MOUTH-BASED VIDEOGAME.

LOLWUT

I think I got that right.. XD

owellz

dudenice

so like. everyone was looking through my pornbook... er... sketchbook. which is really a sexbook. which is what pat called it on accident XD

LOL LEZBEANS

lmfao that was so good
jeremy I LOVE YOU.


CAAAAAAKE

it's so delicious and moist.

oh god portal.

LOVE.
and half-life 2.
love.

omfg jeremy and zack were playing half-life 1, and like. XDD they kept killing each other and having scrotum crowbar fights.

it was EPIC LULZ.

ZACK YOUR COMP = <3

lolwut

we were so haxxing on zack's comp with HL2
it was epic

NOCLIP BABY

lol raven helm

citadel :D


THE CAKE WAS NICE

dudenice



lmfao. pooooorns.
lol lesbians guise <3

I know I'm not making much sense right now. :'D

loooool


you guys.
HAVE.
TO PLAY.
PORTAL AND HL2.

hofuck yes.
PORTALLLL.

Portal is REALLY FUCKING TRIPPY. It's like mega acid trip times infinity. ): like hofuck

IT WAS A JOKE. HAHA. FAT CHANCE.

asl;dks;fsk

Portal = WIN

I'm not even angry.
I'm being so sincere right now.

THE LESBIAN COMPUTER WAS SCARY OMG ): she.. she was really freaky xD;; and MEAN.
she was like "LOL UR AN ORFAN"

and I was like "lolwut"
"OSNAP NEUROTOXINS LMFAO"

lol u rlesed mai neurotoxinz.

doug, zack, jeremy, and... uh... I forget who else sang happy birthday to anand in METAL. XDDDD lmfao... party = GREAT.

so awesome... we played videogames and porned the whole time ;n; it was EPIC LULZ.


GUYS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH <333333333

CAKEEEEEE

HAY, GUISE!

REMEMBER ME?

Homg. :D

I'M BACK, DUDES AND DUDETTES.

<333333

How has everyone BEEN?! Dude it's been way too long! Fuck guys, I love you!

Alright, guys! Well, a lot has fucking happened! 8D ARIIIIIIGHT

So like. We got a new kitten. CCCC: Her name is Nala. SHE IS SOOOO CUTE OMFG. <3333333333 I love her so much.

I'm going out with Yora. 8DDDDDD ♥ We went to my beachhouse together for a week and had a GOOD TIME.

I WENT TO OTAKON. OKATON. I met the most amazing people EVAR.... Ta, Hoshiko, Holley, and all my other great friends. <3 Guys, I love you so much. So fucking much. Like you guys don't even KNOW. <3333333333333333333

And like. SOUTH PARK IS MY LIFE. [along with KH of course! XD] I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEW FUCKING EPISODE TO COME OUT IN A FUCKING HOUR!!!!! OMFGGGGGGG
I'm saying fuck a lot lmao.
I'm hyper. O_O


GUYS LOL GUESS WAT.
I'm so cool.
I masturbated FOUR TIMES in a night.
FOUR.
TIMES.
In a ROW.
holy shit I'm freaking... amazing

yes I am rather horny how could you tell?

grah
you guys C: I misseded youuuuuuuuuuuuuu..................... <3333333333 It's great to be back, LJ.

TEN FAVORITES.

1. PERSON- EVERYONE. 8D
2. FLOWER - pansies
3. COLOR - red or green
4. SPORT – horseback riding
5. MALL – moorestown
6. MUSIC – japanese music... disney music... etc
7. FOOD - anything, pretty much... pocky... sushi...
8. SEASON - spring and fall
9. DAY - may 13th, maybe. since its my bday.
10. STATE - FLORIDA. DISNEY WORLD IS THERE. xD

TEN FACTS.

1. HOMETOWN - Trenton, NJ
2. HAIR COLOR - dirty blonde
3. HAIR LENGTH - Shortttt
4. HAIR STYLE - spiky
5. EYE COLOR - steel blue
6. SHOE SIZE - 7
7. MOOD - fucking... suicidal.
8. SMELL - um. soap?
9. AVAILABLE - heh. now i am, thanks a whole fucking lot.
10. LEFTY/RIGHTY - righty

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.

1. EVER BEEN IN LOVE - yeah. with the person who fucking cheated on me.
2. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE - Forever and always~
3. WHY DID THE LAST RELATIONSHIP FAIL - because they fucking cheated on me.
4. EVER HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN - make a fucking guess.
5. HAVE YOU EVER BROKE SOMEONES HEART - gee whiz, i sure hope not.
6. EVER FALLEN FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND - maybe
7. EVER LOVED ANYONE AND NEVER TOLD THEM - Yep ><
8. ARE YOU AFRAID OF COMMITMENT - kinda
9. EVER HAD A SECRET ADMIRER - Nope
10. BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT - YEP.

TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT.

1. LOVE OR MONEY - Love
2. FLY OR DRIVE - fly plz
3. LOVE OR LUST - Love <3
4. ONE NIGHTERS OR RELATIONSHIP - Relationship!! One nighters are so completely unromantic.
5. TV OR INTERNET - INTERNET.
6. PEPSI OR COKE - jesus christ i dont know. they taste the same.
7. WILD NIGHT OUT/ROMANTIC NIGHT IN - Romantic night in, because it's so much more personal and sweet and loving... and then comes the sex.
8. COLOR OR BLACK/WHITE PICS - both
9. PHONE OR PERSON - Person, i cant handle the phone.
10. MSN OR MYSPACE - .......MSN. I. DESPISE. MYSPACE. D<

TEN HAVE YOU EVERS.

1. EVER BEEN CAUGHT SNEAKING OUT - nope. never snuk out.
2. DONE SOMETHING YOU REGRET - fuck yeah.
3. EVER GONE TO RACE TRACK - Yep!
4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SKYDIVING - no.
5. EVER BEEN ON A HOUSE BOAT - I've been on a boat, but not a house boat.
6. FINISHED AN ENTIRE JAW BREAKER - not a real one
9. EVER RAN AWAY - no
10. CAUGHT THE PARENTS DOING IT - jesus christ no.

TEN EMOTIONS.

1. MISSING SOMEONE RIGHT NOW - yeah.
2. ARE YOU HAPPY - fuck no.
3. ARE YOU TALKING TO ANYONE RIGHT NOW - katie and sophie.
4. ARE YOU BORED - Always XD
5. ARE YOU EXCITED - no.
6. ARE YOU TIRED - yes
7. ARE YOU HUNGRY - no. i ate too much and i feel sick.
8. ARE YOU DEPRESSED - hm... i dont know, you fucking tell me.
9. ARE YOU STRUGGLING - um, YES.
10. DO YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR SOMEONE - hahahahahahahhahahahaha-------
shut the fuck up.






so hey guys. how was YOUR day? mine was just grand :)

so.

today wouldve been a year and a month.


happy fucking anniversary.